Getting back in the proverbial saddle

Hi there!

Ooof. Almost the weekend! If you’ve been following my blog, you know that it has been a crazy couple of weeks for me. I spent all summer working to save up, and I am just now finishing up my fourth week of law school. Crazy. And it has been so fast!

I am getting into a rhythm, though. I created an obsessive Excel spreadsheet schedule dictating study times, workout times, etc. I also am still drafting (a bit late, but I feel like law school is a valid excuse!) a training schedule for my upcoming (drumroll please!) HALF MARATHON!

285Yep, I decided to take the plunge. This summer during my long runs for my Tough Mudder training, I thought: “Hey… I could add a few more miles!” I am excited but also very nervous. The race is mid-November, which does not leave me quite as much time as I would like, especially because I have had a bit of difficulty starting up. That said, I actually think that the goal of a half marathon will be very good for me in this crazy time – it is a tangible goal that engages a lot of the skills I will need for law school, too. It’s a cliché, but they all say law school is a marathon after all!

After my iPhone died on my last long run (the poor thing is too old and tired to track my long runs on a GPS-enabled app anymore), I knew it was time to update. So I went ahead and bit the bullet, and got the most budget-friendly (as well as most pink) GPS watch Garmin offers: The Forerunner 10. I saw a number of other running bloggers use it, so I figure it would be a good product to start up with… Especially because I can’t shell out $250 for a GPS watch right now.

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Hamming it up for a goofy selfie with my new Garmin and my beloved TM finisher tee.

My cute little watch (did I mention it’s pink!?!) accompanied me on my first run in a long time today. I forgot to set up the auto-stop feature, so my time was even slower than it would normally be, but either way it was definitely a challenge today. I only did about 3.5mi, but after weeks of stress and physical and mental readjustment with virtually no running (only occasional strength training and yoga), my body simply could not go fast. It could, however, as it always manages, endure just fine. I was slow slow slow, but I felt happy during my run and amazing afterwards.

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Brutal – but I’ve got to start up again from somewhere! And also figure out that auto-stop feature…

It was so lovely running through my new neighborhood – I love my new home! I live in a really diverse part of Boston, which I really love. As a first-generation American, I am always thrilled to share my space with other people from/with family from different countries, who speak different languages, and who practice different religions.  Just today, for example, I got to pass so many joyful Orthodox Jewish families heading out to celebrate Rosh Hashanah together! Happy New Year to all those observing, by the way 🙂

Where do you like to run?

What do you love about your community?

Peace, sweat and love,

G

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“25 small things you can do to make the world a kinder place” 

“25 small things you can do to make the world a kinder place”

Totally need this list right now – “25 Small Things You Can Do To Make The World A Kinder Place” via Lorna Jane’s amazing Move Nourish Believe site. It has been a long day and I am exhausted emotionally and physically! I just found out that I am being further waitlisted at Cornell Law, which is really frustrating and puts me in a very uncomfortable predicament regarding potential housing. *Sigh*. Nothing I can do about it right now. I think I’m just going to turn in early and get in some good zzz’s while I can. Sleep heals all!

Peace, sweat and love, 

G

Feelings + race recap

Hey friends!

Super excited to say that I am DONE with my finals and, by extension, my undergraduate career. Feeling a bit weird about that. It hasn’t sunk in that I’m graduating in a week – maybe because I don’t really want to think about it. It’s honestly just strange, and I can’t really feel anything about it right now. This is highlighted by the fact that I don’t know exactly where I’ll be come fall, so I’m kind of just generally anxious.

BUT, per usual I need to get out of my own head and calm down. As you all know, I’ve already been accepted to BU Law as part of the class of 2017 , but here’s the wrinkle I maybe haven’t included: I’ve also been put on “reserve” at Cornell Law.

I really, really want to go to Cornell. I will get an update by the end of this month regarding my status: accept, deny, or further wait-listed. Knowing that I will find out any day now is killing me. I’m scared every time I open my inbox (not to mention that I check it obsessively). I even had a dream about it last night. Ugh.

But the other part of me knows that these worries come from a place of immense privilege, and that I need to stop and count my many blessings. I have to fight to remind myself to not play this game, because no one ever wins.

How do I fight this? Well, my blog, in part! This blog is representative of that desire to free myself from the (often self-imposed) shackles of my perfectionism. Peace.Sweat.Love is a mantra of sorts – hey, it works for me!

And so that’s why, to me, making a joint post about law school/future anxieties and a race recap makes sense. It’s not random – to me those things are connected. When I was running my 10k this past weekend and my Nike+ kept telling me my pace, I felt crushed that it wasn’t as fast as I wanted it to be. It was so distracting, in fact, that I almost forgot that my only job was to finish and to have fun. Why was I doing that, getting mad at myself for not running a PR? How on earth does that make sense? It’s moments like this when my old demons creep up and try to get in my head and erase everything I’ve taken so much time to (re)learn. Miles 2-4 I was in a terrible funk despite the fact that I was running this race with my loving S.O. and a dear mutual friend. Finally, mile 5 I started to get it. Or adrenaline kicked in, or I was just less grumpy because it wasn’t as hilly. We crossed the finish line together, and I had to remind myself that that was what I came for. By focusing too much on the end result, I ultimately forgot to stay present and cost myself some of the joy I could’ve gotten out of the experience.

Yeah, I definitely didn’t get a PR during this 10k like I did with my last 5k. But I think this forced me to address some important and consistent underlying fears I have. And like a lot of other people who find exercise to be a healing influence in their lives, sometimes I just have to physically tire myself out before my stubborn mind is willing to tackle my fears.

And if that doesn’t work for you, you can always laugh at how freaking ridiculous you look in your race photos next to your adorable friends and girlfriends. Look. at. my. face! LOL. Clearly I need to take myself waaaaayyy less seriously and take time to smile more often! Hopefully my induction into the Sweat Pink family will make that even easier 🙂

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PS: Check the “Races I’ve Run” page in a bit for a more detailed run-down of my experience at the Newton 10k!

Peace, sweat and love,

G